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Gwen Stefani

Don't Speak 1995

ETHICS:

Some folks just need a swift kick in the A$$ every now and then. At one of my part time jobs, writing is on the wall, this particular person barked orders at me. My reaction went something like this,"Wait a second. The proper recognition would be a hello and how are you. And only then politely asking WOULD YOU PLEASE have a look at the dish washer. After all, We Are All Humans Here." 

Two of the witnessing co-workers were shocked. They both confronted me later that nobody has ever resisted this person's demanding attitude and how they couldn't believe that I wasn't fired. My response to them was, "I am thankful for the paycheck but I am no Phuc-N Dog." Needless to say, I pulled apart the dish washer, fixed the issue by simply removing and cleaning built up scum, and then what do you know, It Works. 

GRAMMY NIGHT:

So I am walking Jane and couldn't believe my eyes. Someone very easy on the eyes from way back when comes walking towards Jane and I. They still have a smoking hot body and haven't missed a beat after all these years. They clearly projected a shocked/mesmerizing response when making eye contact with me and motor mouthed away like crazy. What blew their little marbles, I lost mine years ago, were my questions that related back to the last interaction with one another. They said," You remembered that?!?!" I almost said, " Well Yes, I DO Listen."

One of the many topics covered during our short walk that day was music. They explained that now they live alone and asked if I would be up for dinner and watching the Grammy's? "What Shall I Bring?" We walked while conforming times and Jane & I floated back to the trail head. I turned left and they headed towards the Parking Lot as if we hadn't missed a step in time.

Back Story Here!! I was one of the many Produce Managers for a Mom & Pop Organic Grocery Store and this person used to bring their two kids in. I would cut up fresh fruit for them to try, basically distracting the two little ones in my department so they could quickly shop. Smiles were always exchanged before heading up to the register. NOTHING MORE. They had a partner at that time and both of them participated in two hobbies that interested me. Hints; The You Remembered Comment 

As you could only imagine, I was excited. Way flipping nervous. What do I wear?? What's To Pushy?? Are these appetizers overkill?? Do I show up 5 minutes early or 5 minutes late?? Do fire off a text inquiring if they need anything?? Why am I treating this like the first time?? Phuc-N-A 

Within minutes of arriving, this person isn't for me. When I walked in with dishes in my hand, I kid you not, they greeted me with, who says this, just throw those over there. The table they referred to was cluttered as all get out. I was so disappointed and immediately became judgmental of their lower vibrational language. 

I mean, don't get me wrong, overall, we shared laughs and enjoyed each others company. They did tell lame stories during the award presentations which bothers me but all was friendly.  Just would have been polite to wait for a commercial to tell me an unrelated who gives a rats story.

Then, it happened on the couch. They said to me, during an inappropriate time of course, I hated holding hands because our hands would get ALL sweaty. Now I probably should have let that go but I had to speak my truth.  

I began to calmly explain how I believe how our hands and bare feet connect with the world. Walking and talking with fingers interlocked makes my day. In my model of the world, our right hand sends and our left hand receives information. I most likely rambled on about body work theories and hand held choices but I just couldn't wrap my head around how I went from thinking YES to Get Me The Phuc Out Of Here within a few hours time. 

And for me, one of my many definitions of intimacy, which I refrained from sharing, starts with HANDS and/or LIPS. Together, thats a recipe of delight. Such as, I totally find comfort when having someone lay on top of me with their right hand and fingers intertwined with my left hand. Is that too much to ask??? 

WALKING:

Talk about freeing your mind. The longer days of daylight are singlehandedly marvelous for me. I haven't felt rushed to finish up with what I am working on/with to get the dogs out for a walk. I have time!! Like the reading fanatic Meredith Burgess in Twilight Zone. I Have Time Now. All The Time I Want. Thankfully, I don't need glasses, yet. YIKES

I have encountered one little problem with Jane these days. When she hears that distinct unlatching sound of the side gate, she goes completely ape Sh*T with excitement and its literally all I can do to get her leash attached to her 8 month old ( neck ) collar. Once we start walking, she is happy to walk. Not much of a puller and a really good walker. Its just a struggle for those first few moments. I have tried to sit in front of the gate, which drives her wildly crazy eyed. I spout off commands, pinned her to the ground once, but nothing really seems to work because she is so full of energy and so damn big. But like I say, once we are in motion, she is great to be around. Poor Girl 

CYCLING: 

For whatever reason, totally unmotivated. Whats Up With THAT?? My theory is that I have become a lazy driving useless American. Living with The Dude, I drive the interstate to my sunrise job. SUCKS. I only dislike driving for two reasons. #1 Cant stand watching impecunious selfish drivers. And why the Phuc do they throw trash out the window?? #2 Red Lights!! There is absolutely NO reason to speed in this town because you're stopping at the next intersection. Guaranteed 

Anyway, not all that pleased with my mental state lately. I should be throughly enjoying daily 30 mile /50km bike rides these days. What is my deal?? Who has a size 13 / 47cm boot to put in my lazy A$$?? Now I need a swift kick for sure. Colorado is so beautiful and I am like a spoiled rotten child, don't wanna ride. With My Lip Sticking Out 

But when I am on the bike, its freedom at its finest. Went for a night ride the other evening and I was quickly reminded of how much I enjoy the sounds from the Mighty Colorado River. How gazing up towards the endless star filled night scape keeps me coming back for more. The Possibilities Are Abundant 

  

HOUSESITTING:

Will be taking care of this guy below and his bother until the end of the month. Scored a sweet gig taking care of their place and walking the happy dogs. This was another trial walk on the trail above the Big City of GJ. Looking forward to this upcoming challenge with both dogs next week.

Their house is beautiful and peaceful. I will be in charge of watering the plants, walking the two dogs, feeding both dogs twice a day, and relaxing without anyone telling me what I am doing wrong or stop trying to hold my hand. I have two books in mind that I'll relish plowing through and hopefully the dogs are bed friendly. Would be rather nice too snuggle up with but if they prefer not, that works. I'm Easy

ORTHO:

Yes, authentically fond of the work. I mean, I always have. But this time around has really been a different sort of experience. The clients are more responsive and appreciative. Way back when, Blogged About It A Lot, this was my desire of human kind. I so expected the human race to emerge from the lockdown with a sense of awareness and lead with projections of gratitude. Finally, I am witnessing self responsibilities and owning of ones actions. 

Before we went into lockdown, there were a few clients that held onto that American entitlement attitude. But there has been this shift throughout the office. Almost a calmness of a shift. Hearing the Thank You statements, the respectful self awareness, and the thoughtful discussions after a session. I Love That 

 

One of my new vaccines client heard my spiel on KAFM and they are extravagant. They defiantly asked questions but finally eased up after I passed their initial interrogation. They began sharing stories during our session and within minutes began nodding off. After our session, they paid more than was asked, a final exit interview went really well. I followed up with a text the next day and they were over the moon. Hopefully this becomes a permanent partnership as Ortho often leads folks down that path. So Thats Cool 

DISK GOLF:

Felt like I hadn't throw any plastic in months. For what ever reason, rusty really, my release point was way late on all of my drives. But my lay up shots and putts were remarkably accurate. Dynamite 

At one point, told The Dude that I have a solid open lane on this putt. If I could just not hit the tree between me and the basket, could be makable. Sure as Sh*T, just missed the tree limb by a hair and bounced my putter off the top of the basket. So close from draining about a 30 foot or so putt for a birdie. Shots like that, putts so close, but my drives were so wildly inconsistent. If disc golf wasn't free I would never play again. But its so nice to walk outdoors!! And again, having the Colorado River as a soundtrack helps.

Here is a pretty cool time lapse. Its my first attempt using the draw mask tool. And then its a bike ride along the River Trail. The time lapse is only two minutes long and I hope you appreciate the effort. That sound bed works for sure in my humble opinion. 

GOALS:

1. TRAVEL SAFE
2. Hydrate And Stretch Out 
3. Remember To Water The Plants And Trees
4. Enjoy The Moment 
5. Ride My Bike With Enthusiasm 

Stay Strong And Smile,

Cheers